What's happening? I'm confused.

This feels like some high school bs I wouldn't want to deal with. Ugh.

I'm hating so many people in college right about now.

Detached.

Curious.

I wonder why people are friends with me. I know I wouldn't want to be friends with me. I'm a lame person and very little of me is made of awesome.

Whatev.

I think I'm just nervous for this internship interview.

:)

But really :(.

So won't you be my honeybee

Guess what, guess what?!

It's an afternoon blog! HUZZAH!

It's almost 5 pm and I'm supposed to be doing my commres midterms, as well as researching for our website and finishing an article to be passed later (I haven't started it yet). I have so many academic duties to do... which is exactly why I'm procrastinating! LOL

Anyway, it's February already. A little over a month from now, I will *hopefully* be interning at a company I actually like (please will it so!). The thought is both exciting and nerve-wracking. I haven't even gone through interviews yet. I've sent out my resume to just one company, even! Hahaha! But this is mostly because I'm scared of what's going to happen. And partly because I have no contacts and... no direction in life? LOL

Actually, I do (have contacts and direction). I just don't want to say it out loud because, you know, the universe will conspire to ruin it and the number one rule is to just shut up.

American Idol season has started. I'm excited for Hollywood week because the auditions were starting to bore me. Yay for Andrew Garcia and John Park!

And the May elections are coming up! ZOMGWTHBBQSAUCE. I still don't know who to vote for as president. I know who I want to have as a VP, but VPs don't control a lot of power and they're mostly invisible anyway. Ughhh. Then there are the senators and party lists. I mean, why do we have so many political parties anyway?! It only confuses the people more. It confuses ME more! I think I need to learn more about them, because right now, I have no idea.

Let's get away from those political thoughts please. They hurt my brain. Let's go instead, to books! So far, since The Lovely Bones, I've read The Catcher In The Rye, Lyra's Oxford and The Perks Of Being A Wallflower. Lyra's Oxford shouldn't even be considered a book; it's more a short story. But yeah. I'm trying to start Looking For Alaska by John Green, but sadly, acads keep me away. The Internet, too, is a distraction.

Catcher was... well... I don't know. It was pretty easy to read after the first few chapters, when he gets on with his life and leaves his school. You wonder what he's going to do until he gets home. He keeps on asking about the ducks at Central Park (I was about to put Times Square LOL) and he's so desperate to talk to someone, he even had a prostitute come up to his hotel room and just wanted to talk to her! How bizarre. The ending, also, was just blah. I wanted to know if he ever called this girl or how his parents reacted to his being expelled. But no. It just kind of stopped.

It was like that in Perks too, but at least in Perks, there was a bit of explanation in the epilogue.

Perks was a really nice read. It was sad and inspiring (mostly sad) at the same time. The ending shocked me. A lot. Now I don't know if that event affected Charlie's socializing skills or something; maybe it did. It was just so unexpected! Mainly because Charlie didn't say anything bad about... yeah. There was this one poem by Osoanon Nimuss that was in the book and gosh, it was just so depressing. But it was beautiful too, especially taken in that context, with Charlie reading it out loud to his friends. *cries buckets of tears*

I want to continue reading Alaska already but I have to do these stuff first. Guuuhhh.

Poignant is a weird word to say, don't you think so? Poignant

I can't seem to sleep before midnight nowadays. Hmm.

I don't understand some people's incessant need to say the F word. It's alright to hear it once in a while. But not in every sentence. It just sounds wrong, like you're angry at the world and life sucks so bad you just have to curse the innocence out of it. Why not say freak instead? (Well, unless you're a character in Skins, of course you can say f*** as many times as you want. Add wanker, tosser, mong, chav and what have you if you want.)

I have been watching vlogbrothers videos these past few days and they are AWESOME. They make me want to become a lot nerdier than I am now because compared to them, I am the least nerdy person in the world.

I still can't move on with The Catcher In The Rye. I don't think I like reading classics. It's just not my thing. I like reading contemporary novels more (yes, I include the Twilight series in that list, all right?!). It sucks because I know I'm supposed to like it and find it amazing and blah blah blah... Maybe I'm not intellectual enough to appreciate its beauty. This is just like how I managed to fall half asleep through half of Citizen Kane. Wasn't that a bore (sorry CK fans).

On that note, I really want to read John Green's Paper Towns. Partly because he is an awesome nerdfighter, partly because his book actually sounds interesting. I've been craving to read young adult fiction lately. I think it's because of my creative writing classes. Huh.

I do not like my majors. They suck. Creative writing classes FTW.

I am excited/nervous for my internship.

I am scared of the future. But excited about it as well. Jeez, bi-polar much.

I should sleep. I have a midterms exam tomorrow for my major and I need to be wide awake for it.

It's 1:22 am (why must I share what time it is?) and once again, as with the other early morning blogs, I am... PROCRASTINATING! Fantastic, huh? So while I alternately search for online sources and make our group rrl, all the while listening to Paul McCrane croon me with his homosexual song "Is It OK If I Call You Mine," let me blog about a book. (What an unnecessarily long sentence.)

Ever since I finished reading The Lovely Bones back in December, it's been bothering my head to write a blog about it. Which means I really, really liked it. *thumbs up charlieissocoollike style*

The story is basically about Susan watching over her family. She's dead and she's in heaven. This is how she gets to watch over everyone in her life, even the person who raped and murdered her.

It's a very compelling story. You want to know if the killer is going to be caught, if the family will get the justice they want, if the family will ever move on from Susan's death. Romance also blossoms between other characters and Susan's friends grow up, and in a way, she grows up with them.

It's a very easy read. It's not tiring at all! Not once since I started reading the book did I feel the need to put the book down. Even at 4 in the morning, I wanted to go on. I just want to commend Alice Sebold for a wonderful writing style. It's not so informal as a blog. But it's not one of those Literature, with the capital L, books either, because it hardly confuses the reader or makes him want to bang his head on the wall. I guess the best word for the reading experience is pleasant. Kind of like walking through a meadow of flowers while the sun is setting. Very easy, very calm.

There are chapters in the book that are action-y, yes, but they are needed to give a little punch, I guess. But I don't know, the book was just lovely.

Well, except for the out-of-body experience. That was just... I don't know... I found it annoyingly excessive. We have heavens, and souls whatnot. I guess Sebold thought, "hey, an out-of-body experience wouldn't change much." Ugh. It did. When that happened, I was totally brought back to reality. I was soooo into the book and then, BAM! Yeah, it's not real. Sadly enough.

Now to go to the personal part, eh?

I don't know about you but I've always wondered what would happen to the people around me if I died. Not because I want to die but simply because I'm curious.

I imagine looking through a gigantic shell half-filled with water. It's through the water that I see Earthly events (why I imagined a shell with water, I have no idea, really). I can only look at one event at a time, one person's life at a time. But because it's my imagination, of course I can rewind a person's life, like... I would have said vcd but that's, like, so last decade... a DVD.

I guess that's what really made me want to read the story. It's almost exactly like my heaven, wherein those who just can't let go can still watch life on Earth. And it was surprising to see a published novel share the same concept.

Anyway. This blog doesn't seem to have any sense anymore. I should go back to this group rrl thing and study.

Ooh wait! I wonder why people like Owl City's Vanilla Twilight. Hello Seattle is so much nicer. Vanilla Twilight is kind of boring.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, BLOG! It's 2010. Let's just hope this year will be a lot more productive and a lot less tragic. Year 2009 had tons of tragedies and I do not wish to enumerate them. Why look at the bad side?

Anyway, I'm going back to Manila in a few hours. CRAPPERS. I absolutely hate this feeling. There's no other feeling like it. Having to leave your home for something you don't even want. School is great and all. But come on. Vacation >>> school. Why would anyone want to run away from the former?

I should be doing my Christmas story for J117 but I'm drawing a blank so let's make bullet points of the amazing happenings in 2009 instead!

• SUMMER 2009 - particularly DC and DA concert. My gosh. The. Best. Ever.
• STAR TREK - I still can't get over it! I don't think I'll ever get over it. It's probably going to be like Pride and Prejudice wherein I'll never tire of watching it. And I'll probably memorize all their lines... eventually.
  
• AMERICAN IDOL Season 8 - particularly Anoop? lol first time voting, y'all! I'm not even sure if my calls were counted in the votes but I still voted for him. I woke up early just to watch the episode live and vote for him. And because of that, Karahorndog and Innocene were born. :))
• TWITTER - got sucked into it like light and everything else into a black hole.
• TUMBLR - to feed my weird obsessions. Anton Yelchin made me do it! :))
• GLEE/TBBT - aaaaaahhh! Yes, these tv shows are awesome.
  
• JOURNALISM CLUB - I don't even know why I only joined last summer. But I'm glad I did when I did because the people were nicer and I felt comfortable around them immediately. I loff these guys.
• VINA'S 18TH - the last of the mavericks! Nuuuuuu! But it was damn fun and when I say damn fun, I mean, "DAAAAAYYUMMM, that was fun!" This was, I guess, a bittersweet event because it meant we're all old. But let us celebrate our adult-ness. :))
• SEMBREAK OVER - it was the one and only over I had the entire year. And it did not disappoint! Something is indeed very wrong with Esther. I'll cut your hairless little...
  
• HOW MUCH COULD YOU MEAN TO HIM IF HE LEFT YOU HERE... ONPROTECTED - speaks for itself.
• LATE NIGHT YM/SKYPE CONVOS - they were random. And awesome. You must answer Eywa's calls.
  

Not all of these are "happenings" but they brought me lots of happiness. So whatever.

And duh, of course 2009 wouldn't have been as amazing without my family and my mavericks. I loff my family. I loff my mavericks.

I have to get back to my story now. I still have 700 words to go.