Is it wrong to want to distance myself for a while? Because when I get in too deep, something wrong is bound to happen.

Pain is never far away from love.

And I love my friends dearly.

I think I've finally found a family in this organization. I'm so happy with them, sometimes I prioritize org matters over acads. I just hope this bond stays and doesn't disintegrate. Because even when you're happy with people, it doesn't mean everything's going to be all right.

I'll just have to give 110% heart to this.

I said I should blog more about school because it's funny. But right now, school is not making me laugh.

In fact, it's giving me a headache.

Especially our feature writing class. It's not that the class itself is difficult. It's just that our professor expects a lot from us because she's a distinguished journalist/academician herself. While the other feature writing class is doing restaurant reviews and planning magazine stories, we're doing human interest, profile and interview stories. Which are haggardous, btw, because we need credible sources. And I'm not very good in looking for sources.

But I'm really trying to love this class because I want to write feature stories. Or at least I want to be able to write good feature stories.

I have my Film100 and Comm120 exams this week. I have no idea what to expect. Essays, essays and more essays? I am particularly afraid of Comm120. All those cases to memorize. D'oh!

Psych101 and Comm140 exams next week. Orayt. I think I can handle two weeks of actual studying. Yep. I know I can.

J121. Hah. I am failing my majorest major. It's been such a long time since I've seen a line of 1 grade on my papers. My parents will be disappointed in me. Again. Orayt.

Thank goodness for YM, tumblr, friends, orgmates and movies. Because without them, I don't how I'd keep my sanity.

Tra-la-laaa!

during this time of day.

It's 3:21 am and I haven't finished my paper for our Psych101 class. It's just that I've been reading my past entries in this blog and they are hilarious. I was so grade-conscious back then (still am now) and I actually blogged about it. I should blog about my grades more often for more future laughs.

I was also actually very nervous about the college entrance exams. Which is even more hilarious because I'm in college and it's like I'm not taking it seriously (at this very moment).

It also seemed like being a senior in high school was damn difficult. I talked about how physics and math hated me, and how it's so difficult to balance my time between academics, cheering practices, badminton training, and review days. I can't believe I was busy in high school when all I remember are those afternoons with Milo ice cream and basketball dudes. I guess this is partly why I wanted to join a lot of organizations when I entered college. I already had a handful of things to do in high school that being inactive in college would be unnatural.

And the inter-year cheering competition!!! Gosh, it sounded like it was so damn important! Like my batch's pride depended on it. I have to admit, those were fun albeit tiring days. I missed a lot of badminton practices because of it. I chose it over badminton! How preposterous!

I guess that was also the start of the decline of my relationships with my teammates. It was during senior year that I totally felt detached from the team and so I decided to separate myself further by not attending the practices regularly (even if I was appointed team captain) and missing bonding moments with them. I miss them, as individuals, but as a team... I don't know. Things have changed. :(

I also almost always made a movie review after watching a movie in the cinemas. I think I was a movie critic wannabe. I still am, except I've forgotten how to criticize movies now. I don't know if I should focus on style or story or what have you. I think I'll be able to practice criticizing again because of our damn Film 100 class.

Anyway, I still have to finish this paper. Back in high school, I got sleepy by 8:30 pm. Sweet child, that's earlier than the time I got back to the apartment today! So yeah, gotta finish this paper already.


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Inquirerdotnet is twittering like crazy about Obama and Arroyo's meet-up today.

I miss my mom whenever I'm sick. I think moms were designed to be extra warm and caring whenever their kids get sick. I miss that extra warmth and care.

So how has school been lately? Well, I don't know because I have been sucked into org life. Seriously, when I think about the past few weeks, all I can remember are org-related events. I'm having too much fun being active in an org where I don't carry huge responsibilities (such as being the vice president for internal affairs! grah) so I can just be a member and follow what my committee head says. Seriously, being an officer with inactive members is too much hassle, it makes me lose hope.

My academic life, on the other hand, have been full of readings and papers, as usual. So there's nothing new to report about in that aspect.

Several weeks into the school year...
Subjects I like: J121, Comm120, Psych101, PE2.
Subjects that don't motivate me to do anything heartfelt: J111 (NEVER KNEW FEATURE WRITING COULD BE SO DISHEARTENING), Film 100

Comm140 and J123? I'm not sure about them yet because we've missed several classes already and that's a big deal for classes that meet only once a week (comm140 because of Gawad Plaridel and unforeseen weather instances; j123 because our prof is Mar Roxas' personal photographer. I know...). I'm willing to study for them as long as our profs are willing to teach us properly. LOL. Which is why I love J121, even if I'll probably fail. I'm learning so much. :)

Wait, when did this become a school-related blog again?

WTF WHY AM I SO WEAK-WILLED?

SOMEDAY, WHEN I CAN CONTROL THE TIME AND SPACE CONTINUUM AND FLY, I SHALL STOP PROCRASTINATING AND PRODUCE A WELL THOUGHT-OF, NOT-SO-S***TY OUTPUT FOR MY MAJORS.

BUT FOR NOW, FOR I AM BUT A PUNY HUMAN, A RANT SHALL SUFFICE.