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Assessing the school year

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 18:58:33 GMT

Almost a year ago, I discovered I failed my very first major in Journalism. It wasn't just a normal fail, like getting a 73 when the passing grade is a 75. It was the ultimate disappointment in my academic life. That grade was a major lesson learned. For the academic year 2008-2009, I think became more grade conscious than ever, if that's even possible.

I made resolutions to hopefully manage my time better and there were days when I was successful. There were also times when cramming was inevitable but then, old habits are hard to break.

I came to like my course a little more. With two Journalism majors helping me discover the wonders of the craft, I was slowly imagining myself working in a newspaper. I even started thinking about taking my masters in a university maybe in America or Europe, or where ever there's a good school of journalism. My majors actually made me imagine a future of my own a little more clearly.

This school year also had it's own wild obsessions. Aside from DBSK (which, I think, will be a staple obsession as long as the group lives), I got a little crazy over 30 Seconds to Mars, the Twilight Saga, Robert Pattinson (a resurgence of an obsession), and only very recently, Anoo... American Idol *wink wink*. And I'm very thankful for these obsessions because they keep me sane, albeit crazy to others, in times of stress.

This school year also experienced the slow destruction of some relationships I truly cherish. Blockmates not talking to other blockmates, orgs not properly functioning. I would love to fix everything but I hardly know how to do so.

However, new friendships were formed while other bonds got stronger. And I'm real grateful for that.

All in all, counting the good times as well as the not-so-good ones, I think this past school year was great. I grew a lot as a person, and I saw my progress even if they were slow. It wasn't perfect but if it were, I wouldn't learn anything from it and that's the important part, I guess.

By the way, I took that major again, the one I failed, and I got my grade for it already. I hope with this grade, I can convince my parents to give me celebratory shopping money. *wink wink*

twitch twitch dance dance

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 12:33:51 GMT

I changed my header and background for the summer. Weeee! But I honestly cannot understand HTML so I didn't bother changing the color of the blog itself.

"I walk for mayols along the highway but that's just my way of saying I love you."

It's so summer already. Just yesterday, my blockmate and I were simply talking at the fishbolan yet I was sweating my butt off. All the more so when we walk around the campus! Huff huff huff. Good thing I have my amazing aviator sunglasses! Huzzah!

I only have two more papers to worry about. And then my finals for BC100 which is really only a joke because no matter how much we will study, our exam will all be about trivia and stuff not in our lectures. I'm also hoping that I won't have to take my Comm130 finals because I don't want to study anymore.

My parents told me I should just stay here for the two free weeks before summer classes. Uhm. What am I supposed to do here?! I seriously want to go to the beach. Hmmm... maybe we should go to Puerto Galera, or Aurora or... even Baguio! Anywhere is fine as long as we're not in the stinky polluted MetroManila. Puh-leaze.

Lord, please let this summer be amazing.

I'll show you how

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 18:04:11 GMT

Anoop! I don't usually listen to these kinds of slow, romantic songs because they're just not my type. But Anoop likes singing love songs so fine...

It's 2:06 a.m. and I'm supposed to be preparing for my reports in BC100: "Broadcast Criticism" and "Current Media Technology and Media Convergence."

I just realized, however, that I actually prepared for these reports last week so I don't have a lot of things to do now.

Which is why I'm Anooping my time away! XD

Anyway. We only have a month left until summer... CLASSES. Ack. I can't believe that I'm going to take classes during summer. This is an absolute first. The laziness in me can't take it. Waking up at 8 a.m. everyday during summer? That is just unheard of! But I must. If I don't, I'll have to extend my stay in UP just for CWTS and PE. Eww. No.

Oh well.

By the way, my brother finally has a job! He's working at JP Morgan (if you're actually interested in whatever that company is, click the link!). I don't know what his title is. He says he's kind of like an accountant but not really. Okay. So malabo, mehn.

Both my siblings are working now. You don't know just how old that makes me feel, being the youngest one but already being in college. And I don't even feel 18 yet.

Why is time moving so fast? I need it to slow down so I can catch up.

Chemistry was crazy from the get-go

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 16:27:17 GMT

First and foremost, because this is the most important...

ANOOPDOGG FTW!!! (For The Wildcard)

And Tatiana! Because Idol needs someone as crazy as her. And though Nick/Norman and Nate are there as well, they can't compare to Tatiana Nicole del Toro. Her dream was in America's hands! Tsk, tsk.

I'm listening to Anoop's version of Mary J. Blige's Be Without You. Why is it that every song he covers is better than the original? Well, except for Angel of Mine.

Secondly...

Don't you just hate those people who make such a big deal about little things? Especially those people who make it such a dramatic thing (not Tatiana haha). I know this someone who's kind of bitter towards me because "inaaway ko daw siya." I don't even know what I did. I didn't even know I offended her or whatever. It's so stupid. That's why for the past few times we actually saw each other, I mostly just ignored her. It's kind of mean, I know, because she's fun to be with and she's a great friend... but I don't even know what I freaking did! UGH. So effing stupid and frustrating. But we talked to each other again a while ago and I do hope she doesn't act so annoyingly childish again.

Thirdly...

Friends are just that, friends. Diba Ming?

Fourthly...

I need to sleep now because I still need to cover an event tomorrow for our J102 class. *sigh*

Why I hate this day

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 16:58:41 GMT

apl;icfvjapwoefmnasiovjaslk;djfaioejrfal;kvnaks!!!

Let us talk Plurk and refer to ourselves in the third person.

Allana hates: this day because of the fact that
...SHE LOST ANOTHER FREAKING PIN. The one that said "sarcasm is your body's natural defense against stupid." The one that her friend gave her from States!!! She was very fond of that pin because she thinks she's sarcastic. Now where will she find another pin as witty as that?!
...the lost pin reminded her of her other lost pin which said "I bleed pearl red" and DongBangShinKi in Chinese.
...it rained and she was wearing a pair of shorts and slippers.
...she almost forgot her umbrella in her J100 classroom.
...she could hardly answer the quiz they had in J100! Good thing it was a dyad quiz or else she would have FAILED miserably.
...despite today being Yunho's 23rd birthday, she didn't celebrate it at all.
...she missed her fellow Dong Bang fans' celebration of Yunho's bday! Sure, they only ate fries but still. Those were fries for Yunho!
...she didn't eat proper lunch because she had no more money.
...she has no more money!
...she's not going to DBSK's Mirotic concert in Korea.
...she's poor... oh wait, she said that already.
...she still hasn't sold her 3 Loverage tickets. SERIOUSLY. SHE CANNOT PAY FOR THESE P90 TICKETS!
...she walked all around UP for nothing. What an unproductive walk.
...IT FREAKING RAINED. She obviously can't get over the fact that it rained.
...she almost slipped in front of lots of people. Hahaha!
...she learned that she needs to cover an event on Tuesday but for her to cover that event, she needs to cut her Polsci14 class. But she can't cut her class because she's going to report that day.
...the part of the seat in the jeepney where she sat was warm... it felt disgusting.
...she almost forgot Jared Leto's name! Like, omg. Haha.
...she can't think of anymore things to hate when she thought of a gazillion things to put down just a little while ago.

But she also loves: this day because
...it's Jung Yunho's birthday!!! <3 First love. Haha.
...she got to *silently* spazz with a fellow DongBang fan who's going to DBSK's Mirotic concert two weeks from now! She's so happy for her friend.
...IT'S THE END OF HER HELL WEEKS. HURRAH!
...it was cold. But she hates the wetness.
...her quiz in J100 was a dyad activity. Wahaha! Her partner studied and they passed despite the quiz being "right-minus-wrong." (stupid prof)
...it means tomorrow's Saturday!
...of Dev Patel? HAHAHA. She loved yesterday because of him too. Oh dorky Dev.
...she finally watched the Balloons' DVD even if she understood absolutely nothing.
...Dev Patel has really nice teeth. HAHAHAHA OMG WHY DEV, WHY?!
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It's actually 1:02 am and I am so freaking sleepy. But my brother just went out to buy us McDo food. Yey! Finally some real food. Uhhhh. I need sleep. And food. And some Clef Hanger videos. And some Dev Patel interviews. To keep myself sane. XD

Btw, did you notice? Dev Patel and Anoop Desai are both Indians. Hahaha! I'm not being racist or anything. I just never thought I'd actually like Indians. I mean, their girls are super pretty and super hot. But the guys... ehm.. not so much. Haha! Okay. I'm so sleepy. I need sleep. Uh. Sabaw.

We don't have a thermometer!

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 17:49:57 GMT

It's 1:50 a.m. and I should be sleeping.

Today, I didn't go to school. I stayed at home and watched TV and surfed the net. I should've done my powerpoint for my report on Friday and I should've read my readings in Pol Sci. I also should've went to school in the afternoon (when I felt better) to go to Vargas museum for my art critic paper which is due on Friday.

But no. The laziness that is me combined with the headache of post-fever drama, I stayed at home and watched The Notebook, immediately followed by The Exorsist, right after I woke up. And the rest of the day was spent bumming around at home and doing my best not to faint from the dizziness.

Last night, my temperature reach an all time high: 38.8 degrees celsius. I haven't felt that hot in so long! My fingers and toes were freezing and I was shaking all over (my sister said it was the chills) but my breath and face felt extremely hot. I was all bundled up on my sister's bed and I was just lying down but my joints were hurting so much.

So while I was waiting for dinner and my sister to come home with medicines, I just lay on the bed, bawling my eyes out. I couldn't stop crying! The pain was excruciating. And what was worse, crying made my head hurt more! Yeesh.

But now, I feel a whole lot better and I'm thankful I can go back to school tomorrow.

Oh, and by the way, there was a moment while I was lying in bed, that I just felt so weak that I thought "what if this fever turns out to be something worse and I'm gonna die?" HAHAHAHAHA!! Seriously! What is up with me and death these days? Every little hurdle becomes a life-threatening situation. I think I'm getting paranoid. Gosh.

This is really is it

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 11:37:02 GMT

I feel like I don't update this blog that much anymore. So anyway. An update on my not-so-exciting life!

This week happened real quick! First day back and already I had tons of things to worry about. I still have tons of things to worry about despite it being Friday. I haven't thought of a topic for my environment story in J102 and I don't know how I'm going to go about it (government agencies are close on weekends, therefore the Department of Environment and Natural Resources will be closed). I also don't know if environmental non-government organizations are open on Saturdays and Sundays. If they aren't, I'll have to cram everything on Monday... which I can't do because I have this sort of talk to go to for my BC 100 class. I also have Pol Sci 14 to worry about because my professor is a complete asshole (he says so himself) and my Comm 140 class is starting to get serious. And next Friday, I'll be reporting about the Libertarian theory of the press in J 100. And freak!! I also have this stupid art review to make for Art Stud 1.

You don't know how stressful school is. That is why whenever I get home, I go online to get away from it all for a while. The cyber world is my only refuge now.

But despite the annoying-ness of the real world, it was fun seeing my blockmates again. I didn't realize I missed them. Well, I didn't miss them THAT much because they remind me of school (lol!!). But nevertheless.

There are a lot of good movies out this week! The Curious Case of Benjamin Button is finally out, after months of waiting for it. Other movies I want to watch are The Spirit and Bedtime Stories (because I find Adam Sandler hot, so what). The Day the Earth Stood Still is still out but not in any of the malls we usually go to. I wonder when they'll show Yes Man here. I really want to watch that one as well.

Ooh!! I met another DBSK fan today, in my J 100 class. Lol!! We've never talked to each other since the start of the class until today. When she found out I liked DBSK as well, we just exploded. Hahaha!! She was so happy to finally find another Dong Bang fan in UPD. Lol!! She only became a fan last month so she's still really new but whatever. I love meeting new fans! They're always so giddy and spazz-tastic that they make me feel giddy too! So yeah...

Lookie at our desktop wallpaper!!! It's so cool huh?! Hahaha! Yeah, we're Spore addicts XD

I hate this part right here

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 10:20:07 GMT

So erm, belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

I already packed my clothes and got everything ready for tomorrow. It's not that I'm excited to go back to Manila, I just wanted to do something. There was nothing to do online anymore and I had nothing to take my mind off the flight tomorrow. So I took a bath and packed my stuff. It hurts less when I focus on something and not on the fact that, once again, I'm leaving my happy place.

This is why I hate endings. Never mind if they're happy. They're still endings.

It's good to be back home

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 10:05:42 GMT

I'm in Davao already and I can't stop thinking about my school work. ARGH. What a Christmas ruiner indeed. And the thing is, despite wanting to finish my paper, my body is too lazy and my brain isn't willing to do any mental work. Hahaha. Oh well.

Let it begin, let it begiiin!!! *crazy hamster talk*

On fiyahhhh

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 16:12:22 GMT

When we got home from grocery shopping today, there was smoke behind our apartment. It was coming from somewhere in the apartment behind us, we thought. But actually, it came from the WALL (HUH?! they called it firewall... how ironic) on one side of our apartment (we are the very last of a line of houses... hmm how to explain this?). Anyway, they found out later that that particular wall had some kind of canal (HUH?!?!) and it was full of trash and that some stupid person from the condo in front of our apartment probably threw a still burning cigarette from their window and it landed at the canal full of trash. And that's how the fire PROBABLY started.

It was funny because the people from the condominium were already spraying the smoke with water and it was almost fully doused when the firemen came with their trucks and uniforms!!! Hahahaha! It felt exactly like a movie, where the firemen/police men arrive too late to do any good because the regular citizens have done their job for them.

But before all that dousing of the fire and stuff, I was secretly panicking inside. I was already thinking of what to bring outside the apartment if ever the fire grew and trickled to our side and burned our residence down. Of course I'd bring my phone and wallet and some clothes and little Edward and school stuff. And if we have time, we'll save the computer (because I have 14GB worth of files in this darn machine) and the TV and the refrigerator (sp?) and the food we just bought.

Then I thought "What if a wire or something burst and the fire grew exponentially?" My answer to myself was "Ok, fine. I'm ready to die even if I just bought a ton of gifts and I still have to celebrate Xiah's bday tomorrow and we still need to dance in the Christmas party and I still want to see my friends and parents, that's ok. I don't mind dying at this very moment." Scary. X(

But the fire got extinguished, and everybody went back to sleeping, and we watched some DBSK performances, and I practiced dancing Big Bang's Sunset Glow, and everything is back to normal now.

Except that I still feel pretty crappy inside.

....(edit 12/15/08 1:23am)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM JUNSU!
You're 22 now. But still hot.